Hey everyone, happy Saturday! A little update on me, just to get the boring bit out of the way first!
I’m still a rather flu-y & feeling generally rubbish but the chest infection is clearing fairly well having just finished the course of antibiotics. Bad news is that I’ve done something to my right rib this time. During the last chest infection a few months ago I pulled the muscles in my left rib and it was incredibly painful. It took all this time for it to heal and the pain to disappear.
Now, I’ve done my right rib in and it’s excruciating. I guess my body just wanted to even things out on both sides. It feels a little different to last time, like my lung is being crushed at the bottom constantly, then stabbed when I breathe, cough or move. I’ll mention it when I see the GP next week just to make sure it’s definitely a pulled muscle, as it feels like I’ve been hit by a baseball bat a few times then stuck with a pitchfork.
[Possible trigger warning] I’ve put on quite a lot of weight, which is perhaps more noticeable to me having been a bit underweight earlier this year after surgeries. I would like to say I’m feeling healthier and doing better for it, but I’m not and it’s probably a result of too much sugar and not moving as much as I would have liked due to being unwell.
Both weight loss and gain can be hard to manage, but harder still to accept and not let them affect you emotionally if you’re already feeling lousy about yourself. If you’re in a similar situation, be that through illness, emotional eating/an eating disorder, medication side-effects etc, then know that you’re not alone.
It’s a tough, rough road to walk, even when we know it shouldn’t be a big deal in the grand scheme of things.
The weather has been freezing and pretty miserable, but there have been some glimpses of pinky skies to appreciate. Check it out 🙂
This weekend, I’d like to think I will start treating myself a little more kindly rather than disappearing down the rabbit hole of thinking too much (about the appointments I have next week, about whether I’ll need another stoma op, what I’m going to do next year, where to go from here in terms of work, what the heck I’m doing with my life in general).
I’m trying out proper painkillers today/tomorrow, which I usually avoid at all costs, but I know the pain is becoming a bit too much now. I’m going to treat myself hopefully to starting the second series of Stranger Things. I’m going to do some of the cleaning and vacuuming I’ve been putting off since having the flu/chest infection, and hopefully the painkillers will make this a little easier, otherwise you may hear me screaming from whichever part of the world you’re in!
My questions for you this weekend, as I’d love to hear how everyone’s doing!
1. What’s one thing you are going to do to treat yourself this weekend?
2. What are you proud of having done this week, however big or small?