This past week hasn’t been so fantastic for me. I had hoped for a better Christmas this year; since the last surgery, I had hoped, expected even, a better Christmas than the last 8. Then I started having some more problems and it has thrown a spanner in the works, having a knock-on effect emotionally and making ‘being merry’ incredibly difficult. I’m in pain, frustrated, feeling alone, wound up, exhausted. I’m anxious about the New Year, about likely needing another big op. I’m annoyed that my Christmas feels ruined before it’s begun, but there are always those out there doing it tougher, and I’m reminding myself of the things that I’m grateful for. I’m trying, and I’ll keep trying.
Whether you love it or think it’s a load of commercialised nonsense, Christmas can be almost impossible to escape from.
So whatever you are dealing with this Christmas, whether it is physical health, mental health, anxiety, eating disorders or depression, please know that as alone as you may feel, you are not alone in your struggles.
Take a social media break and forget the ideals and painted pictures of perfection. This time of year can be hard. It rarely, if ever, lives up to expectations, and can be fraught with anxiety. And then, a day or two later, it’s all over. Take a step back to see the bigger picture and try to find the things you are grateful for, the things you enjoy, no matter how small. Thinking back over this year, try to find the positive times you’ve had, the good things achieved.
Look after yourself, get enough rest, put yourself first when you need to, and reach out if you need support. Things can and will get better, you just need a little hope and wishful thinking for a brighter New Year.
Whatever you are up to, however you are feeling, have a safe, warm and hopefully enjoyable Christmas. For those who do not celebrate Christmas, have a restful weekend. Thank you all for reading and for the comments since I started InvisiblyMe earlier this year, it means a lot! xx